Catching up...

Sometimes when I attempt to write a blog post it has been so long I don't know where to start...

I guess I'll start in Oviedo...

But I can't talk about Oviedo, unless I talk about Memphis:

In Memphis fall weather is starting to surmise. 

It's blowing up all over my newsfeed.

This time of year, for some reason, even I crave a pumpkin spice latte with all the chilliness excitement!

(Have I mentioned that I do NOT like pumpkin spiced latte's no matter how hard I want to)

Autumn is my favorite season. Not too hot.. not to cold. It reminds me of college days, and football and throwing couches in bonfires procrastinating the night away, doing nothing....

Just last Tuesday, at community group, we spent about 15 minutes reminiscing about college. It was nostalgic and fun and all of a sudden I felt old. I know 27 is not old but I honestly forgot what it was like to have a schedule of 2 classes and then working from 2:30-6 only to head back to the dorms. And the freedom to wake up and think:  "I can skip class today it's nice outside"- WHAT?!  Maybe since Tez and I no longer hang with the college group we did in Memphis it's weird to even not be around college students anymore. Maybe I am just nostalgic for that.

To say that I am unhappy to be here in FL is FAR from untrue. 

I know this is exactly where we need to be, we're adjusting nicely, I have a job and we're making friends. I get excited about what will happen within the next year (NO, not pregnant, grad school wise) 

But living here has been the most bittersweet experience of my life. Words can't adequately describe and I can't say enough about it without sounding like I have ADD b/c there is just so much I am learning that can't be charted and graphed into little groups.

Tez and I have grown so much closer. I feel we really are creating the foundation to our marriage right now. I told my mom that, of course I have always felt married to Tez, but here away from family and friends I am really starting to understand the "leave and cleave" thing. We are a unit. He is my best friend. And I am thankful for him more with each passing day.

To be honest, God has "shattered some of my dreams" here (I say it like that b/c I just got done reading a book, Shattered Dreams, by Larry Crabb- Amazing) But I am realizing that a lot of my dreams are demands. My whole theology feels as if it is changing and as a result so am I. I'm not getting my way in a lot, life can be hard, and God continually proves to me that He is worth it and in spite of unanswered prayers He still loves me. I am learning to really ask of the Lord, and to know that He knows best. In Memphis, I had so many other things to go to apart from God. I'm not saying they were bad, heck I miss all my friends, my parents, financial security etc. But here I also feel like God and I have grown closer. It's been a bit of a wrestle. But I'm limping along.

I kind of miss Memphis like I miss college. 

But, we can't stay in college forever,

And there is a beauty in growing up....